I never imagined I would have a teenage daughter that resembled myself in so many different aspects not only physically but emotionally as well but also is so different in many aspects. gemma is 13 as of June 11th. I remember feeling very angry and feeling like I didn't fit in at that age. Gemma--on the other hand has more friends then she can count and has demostrated amazing self confidence with trying volleyball, track, basketball, art classes, and photography. I had no self confidence as a teenager and am not sure how or where gemma got this amazing quality. On the other hand she is addicted to facebook and her cell phone, she has moods like you wouldn't believe, and academically she does what she needs to do to make a's and b's and nothing above and beyond.
I want to be the best mom I can and direct my children the way they need to go but sometimes I feel so inadequate and tired--and the most I can do is not going to suffice. I hope that the love and support i can give my children will be a strong foundation for their future.

sadie told dan on the third day of kindergarten--"I don't want to learn spanish daddy"--poor thing broke my heart. I know as time goes on it will get better but as of the first week of school she is not understanding anything. how frustrating would that be??? now--I hear her muttering spanish in the bath and around the house. but if she isn't in class she would rather not be talked to in spanish. I have to remember it is called spanish immersion for a reason.

lately I feel like I have to go onto facebook to see what is going on with gemma--she is so moody lately. It is my first time dealing with a teenage girl and come to find out it is really hard. I guess I just need to put my seatbelt on and get ready for the ride.

my cis class is done--I got an A. I haven't signed up for a fall class yet b/c I am just so tired.

My hubby is in wisconsin for work training and my mom is here visiting me from iowa. We have eaten out and shopped at every store in bend. It is nice to have my mom here--even though we have our differences--we still have fun together. I have two cis classes left. This last week we have learned about power point presentations. Quite a foreign concept for this nurse but I am doing the best I can.
discouraging school news--I need to take all of my A & P classes all over again plus my chemistry class. this will take at least another year or more. I can't seem to catch any luck when it comes to getting my rn. I will just keep whittling away at it and try to keep positive.

fun at the fair

this week in computer class bought more microsoft excel with the addition of charts--pie, columns, bars ect. I told my husband I think I could actually be helpful to someone or to myself with this newfound knowledge. unfortunately as a lpn in the pulmonary department I will quietly practice microsoft excel/charting in the comfort of my own home.
on a side note--I had to have my wedding ring cut off of my finger today. I wear three rings--on saturday night I was fidgeting with all of my rings and placed my wedding ring on my left hand index finger where it remained all night. In the morning when I attempted to take my ring off my finger swelled to three times its normal size. I tried windex, soap, lotion to no avail. today when my finger looked as if it may need to be amputated I went to a jewelry store. Two young women helped my husband saw the ring off of my finger ensuring us that it could still be welded back together. what relief when the ring finally came off--all due to my ridiculous stupidity.

I am now on a nine day course of prednisone for the numbness and tingling in my left arm and the pain in my neck. The plan is to decrease the inflammation and therefore decrease pressure being put on my nerve. If this doesn't work I will get to have a mri--The prednisone has affected me --I haven't been able to sleep in two nights and am a walking zombie and still no relief from the arm. I am going to request an ergonomics review of my work station this week and see if I can make changes there for the better.
on a side note--I did cis 120 homework all weekend--b4 camping, after camping, watching the book of eli, on my bed, in my comfy chair.........
thank you julia for all of you help:)

homework?????

camping or homework?? that is the ultimate question. My husband left today with the littles for wickiup camping for mil's birthday. As for me--I work full-time and am taking a class as well so decided that a little home time as well as homework time would be the way for me to go. I am loving CIS 120 from the perspective that I can use this stuff---for budgeting, budgeting, and maybe some more budgeting. Excel rocks and the more proficient I can become with it the better. I do miss my family but...you gotta do what you gotta do.