sometimes I feel like I am not important or significant in my husband's life. dan is a wonderful person and would bend over backwards for any of his friends or relatives--even for those people in his life who are not there for him.... yet--where do i fit in the picture? I just feel like I am last on his list all of the time
at this point I don't want romance--just some action to show that I am number one
for example I took my team oregon motorcycle class a few weeks back and I asked him many times to pick me up some motorcycle boots..
friday night I come home from work--dan--were you able to pick my boots up? no, the kids were being really bad so we didn't go.
my husband is a motorcycle parts rep for god's sake --i should have the coolest, chic, bike gear ..

not a month ago--he managed to get his dad a zillion different bike parts and ship them to prineville with complaint at all.
dan did get my motorcycle boots--after I wore snow boots to my first motorcycle class to prove a point.
I think about dan all of the time--if it is just filling his car with gas before he drives somewhere the next am or renting a dvd I know he will like--he is constantly on my mind and it just really hurts to think I am never on his

laken in action

my babies

coffee

I am a huge coffee lover truth be told
and not just the black swill my husband drinks. I like the flavored creamers that go in the coffee like pumpkin spice, or vanilla caramel--now they have a chocolate raspberry creamer out--yum
my ultimate favorite this time of the year is eggnog--to die for
I would compare a latte in the morning to a good book
with money being tight--I have been TRYING to cut back
I am just going to pray I get lots of starbucks giftcards for christmas and my birthday....

halloween

halloween began like this. Laken didn't want anything to do with his costume--"don't want to" he said over and over. he didn't want his pirate hat on or to hold his sword--I guess this is the before picture

not 10 minutes later--he was smiling and ready to go---still no hat or sword

goal

I have a goal--it is a hefty goal --yet it is something I want with all of my being.
Dan and I want to move back to bend. I think we wanted to move back within the year after moving to medford.--but alas--we were stupid and bought a house instead of renting.

now three years have gone by--we are upside down on our house--things are looking really bad for selling our house.
so our plan is to rent our house out--and rent a house in bend. foremost--we must have large amount in our savings account before this can play out.
our goal is one year from now--having enough savings to return to bend.
I feel like a giant weight has been lifted from me--